Alias Confidential

Hello everyone!

Since this is my first blog ever, I want to introduce myself to you all, my fellow bloggers of the world.  First I’ll start off with my name. My birth name is Wilnesshia Samuel but I sometimes goes under the alias of Kelly Moscato. I find names fascinating and whenever I would meet a person with a unique or quirky name I would always refer back to my own name and feel a little bit let down. Yes my name is unique but I've never felt it really belonged to me.

My name was always confusing for most to say, they would add a letter, take out a letter, mix and match etc. When I was in elementary school, second grade, there was a girl named Leneshia. Her name was spelled cute and sounded just like mine, her nick name was even the same as mine. Everybody in the classroom would get her name mixed up with mine and asked if we were related. I was always the type of person who wanted to be unique and stand out so one could only imagine how frustrating it was to be totally mixed up with another person, I felt my identity was stolen.

 One day someone called me out of my name, the name was spelled differently and it was a lot grittier. That's how the new Wilnesshia was born. Apart of my reclaiming my name I had to change, I had to take away a part of me that was given at birth. I felt that was the price to pay, the name stuck. Names ending is sha's wasn't unusual and very commonplace, it was cool. The pronunciation was normal for them, they could understand it. It seemed to stick with me as well.

My mom now calls me Wilnesshia, pronounce as Will-knee-sha. My dad, who was the one to name me) calls me Wilnesshia, now there’s two ways you can pronounce that. Will-knee-cee-yah or Will-knee-she-uh. I’ve always felt conflicted because at home I was Wil-knee-cee-yah but at school I was Wil-knee-sha. I soon felt disconnected with both names and started imagining myself as a different person with different alias. I was virtually the same person with two different personas, here’s Neicy at home and here’s Willnesha at school.

Around this pivotal time I didn't like either people so my way out was thinking about being a Brittany or a Tiara. As my personality continued to be sculpted I realized that those where boring names and very common, so I became Zanabs, Katarzynas, and Summers throughout my day dreams which transferred into my stories, at this time I were writing stories heavily. And my characters were influence by that. I said all of that to come full circle to the alias, Kelly Moscato. The name Kelly Moscato is my name of the month.

When I introduce myself as Kelly I definitely feel a claim to it unlike my real name, this is a name I own, a name I CALL MYSELF. I chose this name, this name is mine for now. I am very happy with this name right now.

I look forward to continuing blogging and getting better at it. _KM