Thursday, March 13, 2014

Is this what I want?

Do I even know what I want? A career hunt


I wrote this essay in hopes of being accepted into a Summer Medical and Dental Education Program. But my classic uncertainty have come back to bite me. Among other problems, I seem to find a career that interest me for a week, gush over it, dream about it and then every time, every time slowly but surely low interest bit by bit. If it is not the waning interest that gets me it is the self-doubt. So since the deadline for the Program have already passed I guess I can just give this post to you, my viewers. I've written the essay to myself kind of like a self-reflection diary entry for purpose sake hence the "Dear Kelly."



Dear Kelly,

         It’s taken me a while to get here, a place I honestly thought I would never find. But at last I’m here. I know I have a purpose and it’s for me to get my baccalaureates as a Registered Nurse. Then continue my education in order to become a Nurse practitioner, finishing up with my Masters then a PhD. There are many nurses on my dad side of the family, but that is not why I chose to become a nurse, at least not fully. I would like to be a nurse because I feel that is my life calling, my duty as a person to enter into this big world and help the public's health with my knowledge and expertise.

          I envision myself in an office, no... A huge busy hospital located right smack in the overcrowded city of downtown. While pursuing my higher education in getting my Masters and PhD. in medicine, with spare time I would volunteer at local shelters of the abuse and needy and give a helping hand without any want of a payment or gift in return. I dream of taking many study abroad trips to places both familiar and exotic, far and wide. To places with extreme poverty where there isn't enough money for locals to pay for medical relieve for their health problems, illness and diseases like South Sudan or Indonesian. And although I could also see myself in upscale nice suburban communities I feel my best efforts will multiple more if I could help those who needed it the most.

          And this is where my passion has grown-from the need and want to help others with sickness and no hope left. Being a person whose had health problems because of an unhealthy diet, poor health care and not much else help to go by, I know personally how it feels to not be able to get medical help because of lack of access. Luckily now, I am able to get Medicare for my health problems, but I do not know for how long. As I get more informed about my health I am able to treat my body with better nutrition and care for myself mentally. When I was sixteen I was diagnose with Type two Diabetes and of course I knew it was because of my ignorance of proper health care, I can honestly say I am getting better in my choices. And I chose to be healthy, strong and mindful of what I put in and on my body as regards to food, medicine, beauty products and other items.

           I can see the progress I am making and that encourages me more. The better I look, the better I feel, the better I feel, and the better I want to make adjustments to my diet, exercise regime and overall lifestyle. Of course there are influential people that I have come in contact with whom have push me in the right direction, albeit at times, a little more forceful than required. I wouldn't have research all the health problems I would encounter if it wasn't for my doctor who gave me the necessary truth nor would I have felt comfortable as my blood was drawn out into a sharp needle if it weren't for the nurses that help me through this terrible time while I was vulnerable and sad. I would like to help many people across the world with those same warm hands that help me through my transition though, a still ongoing, journey to a healthier me.

           When I was younger, I often wondered, why there are so many people around the world with failed hopes and dreams now with a little more experience with life, I can guess that those people possibly where the ones that lost hope in their ability and gave up. I pledge to myself that I will not allow any injustice or prejudice I may encounter, pain or suffering I may feel or lack of funds steer me away from my dreams and wants out of life. That I, one day will live out my life the way I would like and to be my main drive in creating my goals to the future. I believe the Summer Medical and Dental Education Program would be a great opportunity for me to get an insight into the vast medical world I crave so much to be included. I truly feel if given, this experience would help me fine tune my goals I have in order to enter into the medical community and long after. The amazing insight this program would give is even more than I can see, I will go in wanting to create new lifelong friendships, a look into the medical field and extra tools to succeed, to coming out cherishing the opportunity that will stay with me for a life time. I hope to hear from you all at SMDEP.


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